Years ago, had I had an experience like I’m having now, a grand scale illness, aging parents stress, loss of income and my whole life being thrown up into the air all at once, I would’ve blamed myself. I adhered to the new age philosophy that made me believe that I must be vibrating at some extremely low rate, that I would incur such horrible disaster into my life. I’m so grateful that I moved out of looking at life from that paradigm. Living with this mentality kept me in a continual shaming loop. Life is too short to be continuously feeling bad about every little thing that you do if it doesn’t turn out the way that you want it to. What we want and what we need are two different things. Perhaps life knows best for us than we do for ourselves?...
Now I say ‘shit happens’ and I look more at how I am reacting to what life hands me? We don’t always know why things happen to us? We can try to solve it, but will we ever truly know for sure? What we can do is ask ourselves, what can we learn from it? Asking the question, ’What is this experience teaching me?’ Maybe instead we should be saying to ourselves, that these seemingly negative experiences are gifts and something positive that we are moving towards as opposed to what we are moving away from.
When looking at the grand scheme picture of our life and our souls wisdom, are we then able to truly be able to discern what is right for our spirit and what is not. We may even say to ourselves, ‘What kind of bad ass spiritual warrior am I, that life handed me this crazy ass shit storm!’ I truly think we’re learning to be our own healers. Earth angels having a human experience. So embrace the lesson, ‘loving what is’ as Byron Katie says, and go on the journey. It’s actually more exciting Not knowing…..