As we all navigate these very intense and extraordinary times, it’s easy to feel stressed and alone in our own little worlds. But don’t underestimate the power and influence of the food we eat, our personal history, the history of our ancestors, our collective community consciousness and of course my favourite, the stars. LOL
Because my lungs are weak from the Covid pneumonia and my energy so low, I really can’t talk much to people and share some of the hard things of what I’m going through. But as I’ve had the time to be able to sit with the feelings and emotions that rise up in my day, I’ve had the gift of discovering a new way of dancing with these energies. It makes perfect sense that we may not want to face some of these emotions, as feeling bad is a hard state to be in. So we learn our own personal ways of coping and suppressing. But instead of ignoring, running away, being busy, talking or finding other addictive behavior to block out having to feel, I’ve found that being still, and facing these emotions like a true friend has been life altering. Being curious, embracing and compassionate as these feelings try to tell their story.
So now I’m left to sit with myself and sense what’s going on internally. I’m not finding the need to delve into the story these days and it feels better that way as it’s easier to truly feel. I’m just sitting and being present with the feelings and energies. Breathing with them. And as I do, I find they literally dissolve. Easier said than done but as we try to hide from these feelings, like we have for a lifetime, we find that it’s impossible. They are in our cells and ultimately they are our history from this lifetime and others. They are a part of us.
So why hide from ourselves any longer? Meet yourself. Cry with yourself, be scared with yourself, be stressed with yourself, be depressed with yourself. Face your fear in the face. The things that happen to us in life are triggers to the rise of these energies and it’s a wonderful practice to surrender and embrace all experiences as an opportunity to heal. So the next time something comes up, just breathe, connect to your body and Feel It. Take the opportunity to be the mother to yourself and really show love and compassion to the feelings that have arisen. It’s all you. It’s all love.